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Some years ago, in a class in religious experience, a woman
shared this story:
She had been raised in a religious home and had been a regular
church-goer until her university years when her interest in
religion progressively dropped so that by the time of her
graduation she no longer attended church. Her indifference
to religion continued for several more years after her graduation.
Her story focused on how that changed.
One day, several years after having given up going to church,
she went to spend some time with a married sister who lived
near a major ski resort. She arrived on a Saturday evening
and the next morning, Sunday, her sister invited her to go
to church with her. She went skiing instead.
God doesn't
send catastrophes to wake us up. But to say that God
doesn't initiate or cause these things is not the same
thing as saying that God doesn't speak through them.
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On one of her runs down the hill that Sunday, she hit a
tree and broke her leg. Sporting a huge cast, she was released
from hospital several days later. The next Sunday morning,
her sister again asked her to come to church with her. This
time, with skiing not an option, she accepted the invitation.
As luck would have it, the readings for the day were about
the Good Shepherd and, as chance would have it, there was
a visiting-priest from Israel. The priest could not see her,
complete with cast, sitting in the back pews and so there
was no explanation, other than divine providence or pure,
sinister fluke, for how he began his homily:
"There's a practice among shepherds in Israel, that existed
at the time of Jesus and is still in use today, that needs
to be understood in order to appreciate what Jesus says about
God as the Good Shepherd. Sometimes very early on in the life
of a lamb, if a shepherd senses that this particular lamb
is going to be a congenital stray and be forever be drifting
away from the herd, he deliberately breaks its leg so that
he has to carry it until its leg is healed. By that time,
the lamb becomes so attached to the shepherd that it never
strays again!"
"I may be dense," shared the woman, "but, given my broken
leg and all that chance coincidence, hearing those words woke
up something inside me. I have prayed and gone to church regularly
ever since!"
"The language of God is the experience God writes inside
our lives," says St. John of the Cross. James Mackey suggests
that divine providence is "a conspiracy of accidents" through
which God speaks. What this woman experienced that Sunday
was precisely the language of God, divine providence, God's
finger in her life through a conspiracy of accidents.
Today such a concept of divine providence is not very popular.
Our age tends to see this as too connected to an unhealthy
fatalism ("It's all in God's hands, I needn't take all the
necessary measures!"), an unhealthy fundamentalism ("God sent
AIDS into the world as a punishment for sexual promiscuity!"),
or an unhealthy theology of God ("God sends us natural and
personal disasters to bring us back to our senses!").
It's good that our age rejects these false notions of providence
because God does not start fires, floods, wars, AIDS or anything
else to punish us. God doesn't break anyone's legs. Nature,
chance, freedom and brute contingency do. Sometimes, admittedly,
sin is involved, but that's not the point. God doesn't send
catastrophes to wake us up.
But to say that God doesn't initiate or cause these things
is not the same thing as saying that God doesn't speak through
them. God speaks through chance events, accidents, both good
and bad. Past generations more easily grasped this.
My
parents, for example, had a finely-tuned and theologically-correct
sense of divine province: They were farmers and, for them,
like Abraham and Sarah of old, there were no accidents, only
providence and the finger of God. If they had a good harvest,
God was blessing them. If they had a poor one, well, they
concluded that God wanted them to live on less for a while
and for a good reason. And they would always in the end figure
out that reason.
Jesus called this "reading the signs of the times." How
do we do this? We do it by becoming meteorologists of soul
who read the inner movements of the spirit in the outer weather
of history.
In the conspiracy of accidents that make up the ordinary
events of our everyday lives, the finger of God is writing,
and writing large. We are children of Israel, children of
Jesus, and children of our mothers and fathers in the faith.
We need therefore, like them, to look at each and every event
in our lives and ask ourselves the question: "What is God
saying to us in this?" The language of God is the experience
that God writes inside our lives.
Reading that language is an important form of prayer, one
that takes us beyond simply saying prayers to more healthily
living out the words: "Pray always."
Oblate of Mary Immaculate Father Ronald Rolheiser is a
specialist in the field of spirituality and systematic theology.
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