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Things are bad right now; there's no other way to say it.
Some of our greatest thinkers and poets harbored the hope
that after the horrors of World War II humanity would change;
they imagined a world where evil had been unmasked and it
would never be able to subjugate us again. Tragically, this
now seems like a naďve dream. Horrible, terrible things are
being done all over the world, in the name of nations, powers,
land, wealth, and yes, even in the name of God.
I learned U.S. History from a wonderful professor in college,
idealistic and hopeful; he taught me to believe in humanity's
potential and our own role in working toward it. Years later,
on a trip to Philadelphia, I was deeply moved standing in
the very places where what it means to be an American was
first imagined.
We need to
hang up our nets, we need to stop whatever it is we
are doing, and we need to look up and listen for that
wind, to contemplate the dancing nets and know that
God's power is mightier than all our efforts.
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I recently spoke with this professor again, his hair is
grayer, his eyes much sadder. "I don't recognize my country
anymore," he said with an air of disbelief. "I can't believe
in the things we are doing anymore."
This history professor is also a priest, and I wondered
how it is we do this, how do we remain radically truthful
and critical about all the wrongs we see, and at the same
time just as radically hopeful?
Among the many beautiful paintings by the American artist
Andrew Wyeth, there is one which I think gives us some possible
answers. In it Wyeth paints a brightly lit late afternoon,
the elongated shadows of tall poles undulate across the sand,
we see some dunes and beyond it, just a little water; is it
a sea, a lake, maybe a lake called a sea, like in Galilee?
A strong breeze blows lifting up the fishing nets hanging
from the poles.
That is all he gives us, fishing nets and a strong breeze
and such beauty that our heart aches to be there for just
one moment. The name of the painting is "Pentecost."
The work of the disciples of Jesus was fishing. It was hard
work, and as we're told several times in the Gospels, often
they would return home with nothing in their nets. They didn't
fish for sport, they fished to feed their families, their
villages, and it was essential work for their survival. Yet,
we are told, that once they were called by Jesus the disciples
left their nets behind. Did they hang them up on poles on
the sandy shore to dry out? Did they return to them? Is a
part of Pentecost the leaving behind of our cares?
Yet... in the painting, it is these very nets which were
left behind, that are lifted up by the playful breeze. They,
the work, is also part of the Pentecost moment. Does Pentecost
then remind us that it is not that we have left our cares,
but rather that as we hang them up for a moment it is the
Holy Spirit who will lift them? Does the painting not tell
us of a Spirit that will playfully and wildly find ways to
make beauty out of the everydayness of our concerns?
In the painting, the hanging nets are not guarded, no one
watches over them, there is a radical sense of trust in seeing
them left there, alone, by the edge of the water. Even more,
there is the certainty that in a few hours the hard-working
people who hung them there will return to take them up again;
then they will head out into the sea.
Pentecost is a pause for the Wind, for the Ruach to act
upon us: "And suddenly there came from the sky a noise like
a strong driving wind, and it filled the entire house in which
they were" (Acts 2:2). We need to hang up our nets, we need
to stop whatever it is we are doing, and we need to look up
and listen for that wind, to contemplate the dancing nets
and know that God's power is mightier than all our efforts.
Yet, we also need to return to those nets, because - in
spite of the image we have of the disciples leaving their
nets and following Jesus - I for one think this was something
they did often, and joyfully, but they did return to their
nets and to the very hard work of both being workers and being
prophets.
In the very final chapter of the Gospel of John, after the
Resurrection and after Jesus has breathed the Spirit on them,
what do we find the disciples doing? "Simon Peter said to
them, 'I am going fishing.' They said to him, 'We also will
come with you' (John 21: 3).
They fish all night and catch nothing. Life is not good
to these fishermen; what can happen to a community when there
is nothing to eat? Jesus is risen, it is true, a new world
has dawned, but the everyday cares, the human need to eat
and feed others, to hold a job, to contribute to the common
good, all of those needs are still there as they were before.
But,
the Gospel continues, a man they do not know appears on the
shore as they are readying to return to shore and instructs
them to try again. They do and the nets are filled. Like with
the meal in Emmaus, it is then they recognize Jesus, in the
fullness, in the fulfillment, in the having their trust justified
and satisfied. The cares are there, but now we have an advocate.
The nets hanging in Wyeth's painting are awaiting men and
women who will take them up, but only after giving the Holy
Spirit a chance to dance around them, to show them light,
to unburden them. Things are difficult in our world right
now, but every single time we take up those nets and work
hard for a full catch, we will know that we have trusted God,
that the fullness and the results come from God's hand, and
that we must keep at it, with plenty of breaks in between
for us to rejoice in watching the nets dance in the wind in
the late afternoon sun.
Cecilia González-Andrieu is a Presidential Scholar at
the Graduate Theological Union, in Berkeley.
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