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Ash Wednesday comes, and we do something extraordinary. We
go to church in the middle of the day, in the middle of the
week. For one day we break the boundaries of a routine life.
It is a ritual we have practiced since we were children,
a moment of remembering who we really are. And as the ashes
are pressed into our foreheads, there to mingle with the sweat
of our brows, we are signed.
I mean signed like in a work of art, like Van Gogh's haunting
"Vincent" hastily added at the edge of a canvas, or a three-year-old's
proud scribble of something which just now begins to resemble
a name. On our foreheads is a signature, a smudgy Cross, a
sign that we are God's.
Lent begins
a time when the astounding drama of salvation is replayed
all over the earth, when believers repeat the stories
that have given meaning to existence for 2,000 years.
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Lent begins a time when the astounding drama of salvation
is replayed all over the earth, when believers repeat the
stories that have given meaning to existence for 2,000 years.
This Wednesday we begin to re-tell or, better yet, re-live,
the narrative of God's amazing and loving presence with us
in Jesus Christ.
How do we participate more fully of all that will begin
to unfold before us these days of Lent? I want to suggest
to you that one way is to look at life as in a mirror. Rather
than seeing art as an imitation of reality, can we turn it
around and recognize reality as a work of art? Perhaps we
can begin by gazing in a mirror at those ashes of Wednesday
on our foreheads, so we can start to see ourselves as part
of the story where Jesus will soon walk, suffer, die and rise.
I have seen two films recently that I think capture this
sense of turning life into art beautifully. At first glance
they seem like radically different movies: "Big Fish" is all
lushness and exuberance; "American Splendor" takes place on
the stark edges of society. Yet both are about the profound
healing that happens when we can see the art in our lives,
and by seeing the art sense there is an Author.
In "Big Fish," an adult son,
faced with his father's terminal illness, is single-minded
in his search for truth. This truth, he believes, will allow
him to finally know his father. The father, Ed Bloom, persists
in telling the story of his life (even as his life wanes)
in the way he always has, as a beguiling yarn full of "Big
Fish" stories. The ensuing conversations, which make up the
substance of the film, unfurl his magically reconstructed
life.
As
his son and young pregnant wife listen, the dying Bloom recounts
his memory of somehow obtaining every single yellow daffodil
in six states in order to woo the girl that would become his
wife. Story after story, we are similarly captivated by giants
he befriends, a crumbling town he rescues, and a bank robber
he helps to change his ways.
Through the bigger-than-life drama, what becomes most apparent
is Bloom's constant and steadfast goodness, his gentle and
caring heart, and ultimately his paradoxical selflessness
in the midst of so much bombastic storytelling. I don't want
to spoil this movie for you, because I do hope you will see
it, so I will save the end. But suffice it to say that like
us, when faced with the wonderment of God's story for us,
the son has to decide to either finally believe and become
part of the story, or perpetually remain at a distance, alienated
and unable to love.
The second movie I want to commend to you is "American
Splendor," which seems at first the polar opposite of
"Big Fish." The true story of Harvey Pekar, a Cleveland file
clerk for whom everything always seems to go terribly wrong,
"Splendor" is 180 degrees visually from "Big Fish," all dilapidated
settings and dreary, apparently pointless lives.
Yet, like Bloom, Pekar decides to turn his life into art.
Bloom lived ordinary existence extraordinarily, and in recounting
it over and over filled it more completely with meaning; Pekar
pushes the very ordinariness of existence, the painful and
often dehumanizing life of the late 20th century, to the foreground.
In his disarming honesty the art is born.
Unable
to draw anything but stick figures, Pekar nevertheless sees
life with the acuity of the most trained observer; the result
is his collaboration with fine cartoon artists resulting in
a series of "underground" comic books. Through these comic
books, Pekar meets his wife and is able to embrace his human
fragility, culminating in their joint graphic novel "Our Cancer
Year."
The film's brilliance lies in no small part in Pekar's insightful
understanding that "ordinary life is pretty complex stuff,"
but also in the interplay between actors and documentary footage,
always reminding us, when we would get too caught up in the
"art," that this story is "art" precisely because it is real.
So, two stories of two human beings, seeing themselves as
part of a larger and infinitely complex story, but one that
is ultimately worth re-telling because it is worth living
and very much worth living because it is worthy of re-telling.
We begin Lent, the time to narrate the story once more of
a young Jewish Rabbi, who came to help us see, as St. Paul
says "as through a glass darkly": that in the very ordinariness
and toil of life that larger and more magnificent story in
which we place our hope is revealed.
Cecilia Gonzalez-Andrieu writes from the Graduate Theological
Union, Berkeley. "Big Fish" is rated A-II and PG; "American
Splendor" is rated A-III and R.
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